I believe consciousness is awareness and how to put things that happen to you in perspective. I believe that we all must have love and peace inside before we can find it on the outside. We generate our own good and bad experiences.
Have I gained anything this year? I sure have. I now realize the destructiveness of my relationship and why people are so hurting to me. I may hurt them too, but I have and open mind and some people are not there spiritually yet. They cannot give and receive. They can only receive because of their limited growth.
I will turn my intellect toward writing and not hurting. I will pursue making a living so that I am in need of no one. This should occupy my mind and even draw people to me. I don't need to attract them based on need.